Perfect? Not by a long shot!

I am not a perfect parent. I have never claimed to be nor have I made that promise because I know it is utterly impossible! One thing I did do was promise my boys from the moment they were born I would be the best mommy I could be. I also knew I needed God’s help to guide me and give me the wisdom so I could fulfill that promise! After all, He blessed me with these precious gifts so why wouldn’t I look to Him for the direction and knowledge I needed?

It was just this past week I confessed on two separate occasions how imperfect I am. I have become lenient in disciplining my children. When this realization finally came it smacked me right in the face! I found myself  completely exhausted and frustrated because I was constantly telling my kids over and over and over again “get your pajamas on”, “brush your teeth”, “stop teasing your brother”, “stop”, “stop”, “STOP!” Grrrr!

How did this happen? I somehow let my children gain all the control. I was disappointed for allowing myself to become this parent I said I would never be. I started placing blame, how? And excuses, why? But you know at this point the how or the why didn’t matter to me. I only knew this is NOT where I wanted my family to be and I had to act fast! Instead of feeling like a bad mom because, well, I know better, I tucked my kids into bed and kissed them good night and said tomorrow is a new day! I was ready to take the reins back!

I know God is always with me, but I was also reminded (again) I need to surrender everything to Him and trust Him completely, which I know I haven’t been doing so much these days. See, I wasn’t only lacking in the discipline area I was also getting lazy with our daily devotionals and prayer time. We are God’s children and He is probably just as frustrated with me in not praying and listening to Him as I am with my own kids!

So, with this new day I am committing to spending more time with God and renew my promise to my kids that I will be the best mommy I can be! I am not perfect, but with God’s help I will surely try!